Forever 18

I still remember the first time…

the sunlight through the

closed car window

the oppressive heat pushing against

the car as we drove

the demand you stated so

matter-of-factly

my in-your-face refusal

my head slamming against the

closed car window

the oppressive heat pushing through

me as we parked

crying on a green wooden bench

in the epicenter of the world

as you drove away in my car

the Shame of forgetting

who I was for the very first time

settled beside me

hid my identity in hers

said she was all I had now

Secret came to lean

upon my other side

hid my voice in hers

told me to wipe my tears

so no one would know

and so I did

for far too long…

for far too long

I snuggled between

Shame and Secret

and let them whisper

dark-nothings

into both my ears…

When I stood and walked away

I remembered the first time

they came to sit with me

I remembered the first time

I forgot who I was

I remembered how I came to be

forever 18

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